Tuesday, June 28, 2011

A mind is a terrible thing to waste, even when it's driving you crazy!

Ok so I may be thinking and worrying a bit too much........ya think??????

I was worried about the echocardiogram and then I got it in my head that the tumor was changing/growing.  I sort of freaked out so I called Dr. Beekman on Friday and she was able to see and reassure me.

The echo results are ok as far as surgery goes.  The number is low but not in a dangerous way and the only reason she decided to delay the Herceptin treatment was to be extra cautious.

She didn't think the tumor had grown but decided to send me for a mammogram and ultra sound.  I had both of them today and they believe that the tumor has gotten smaller but because in December it was more of a solid mass and today it was more shadowy, it's not easy to measure.  The lymph nodes on the mammogram showed a few small ones but on the ultra sound they found no strange looking lymph nodes.  That's really good.

I meet with my surgeon on Friday to get more information and then I just have to wait until surgery on the 19th and not THINK too much in the meantime.  I can do it, I know I can.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

oh come on..............

My oncologist called me and said that they can't continue my treatments (the one they are going to do every three weeks for a year) because the echocardiogram I had on Monday came back showing a "slight' concern.  It seems that one of the aspect of the test, the ejection fracture, dropped 9% since the last time they did an echo.  This tells how efficient your heart can pump.  Mine is just a little low.  They aren't too worried about the number  but the fact that it dropped 9%.  The plan is to give my heart a chance to rest and delay treatment until another echo shows that it has come back up.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.  I asked if it means I should not exercise and they said no.  Stupid, stupid, stupid.

I won't know if this could/will impact surgery until I meet with the surgeon next Friday but IT BETTER NOT delay the surgery or I will get really pissy!  (although I guess it's important to have your heart healthy before surgery but come on...........)

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Time with the girls

We did an overnight trip to Duck Lake.  Spent time on the boat, watching six baby swans, seeing a plane land on the lake, celebrated three birthdays, ate WAY too much, and most importantly laughed at all the goofy things 57 year old women do...... this time together is priceless!

Monday, June 13, 2011

Last treatment

Took a picture on the first day of chemo and again today on my last day.  I'm done with chemo forever.  A BIG thank you to my sister, Connie Lou (she hates when I call her that) for being with me every step of the way throughout this process.

Next step, surgery on July 19th so I have a month to relax and get my body ready for surgery.  Lots of doctors appointments but other than that, a good amount of time to relax.

HOOOOOOORRRAAAYYYYY!!!!!!!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Funky mood today, been a while

I have been hanging in there and been ok lately.  Today I am struggling a bit.  End of the school year, leaving my school forever.....that's one thing.

#2 Went to a dermatologist today for a skin cancer screening and he found and biopsied two spots that look "suspicious."  I just don't need one more thing to worry or think about right now.

#3 Not sleeping again at night....grrrrrrrr.

#4 It's Thursday and my body is fighting back......it'll get better tomorrow.


Ok, done with the pity party now!

Monday, June 6, 2011

We are down to just ONE treatment left

Can you believe it?  Way back on January 28th when I had my first treatment  I thought five months was going to be forever and now its almost over.  I even asked the nurse if they could double up this week so I could be done.  Guess it doesn't work that way so next Monday, June 13th by this time I will be done with chemo (and it BETTER mean done forever and ever with chemo).


SERIOUSLY!!!!!!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

What lovely weather we are having!


A few happy pictures........flowers that make me smile and Milan fireworks.

It doesn't get much better than this!  Life is good!